Happiness

It is a fact that happiness can be found in many forms and it varies from person to person. 

The last two years have been truly happy for me (except for the loss of one of my horses... That was obviously not happy)

I am sailing through my education (medicine is a loooong course) and have the most amazing partner I could ever hope for. It may seem really cliché but there you go.

This year has seen many ups and downs. With death and illness of family members and loved ones on both mine and my fiancé's side. Yes fiancé ^*^ he proposed later this year at a family gathering. 

It's been almost a year since the death of my Appaloosa, wow time flies and I still miss her. Poppy is still going strong and recovered from a mild bout of Laminitus so she is sound again.

I'm loving my work more and more, plus meeting new people. The recent show I ran was a great success. I look forward to putting on the next one.

What else can I say... I've had to take a small hiatus from tightlacing and wearing corsets. This is due to the fact that we are expected a baby, it was planned before anyone asks. However after the birth I will be wearing them again so yay. (As I'm writing this I'm being kicked like mad haha.) Also electric Mausoleum has moved to the first Friday of the month and our Yuletide vampire ball has a good turn out.

I hope everyone else had a good year and will have another great one next year.

Unexpected gift

Unbeknown to anyone save a few is the rather simple fact that I do not talk to my father if I can avoid it. Lets just say excessive alcohol and anger, from a young age I apparently used to tell my teachers that I didn't have a dad when we were talking about family trees or parent's job. 

I avoided any contact for over 6 years before my mum dragged me to meet up for a coffee with him. Anyway a month or so ago he called me up... Drunk as usually saying he had something for me. I took it with a pinch of salt. When I met up with him it turns out for once he wasn't lying. He had brought this tiny Staffordshire bull terrier pup. Not great timing I must admit and that will be made clear in a few weeks time.

We decided to call this little terror Gaia after the earth goddess and Mother Nature. 

She was apparently 8 weeks but I am guessing she was more on the 6 week mark. 

This is how big she is now at 13 weeks

Comics

Just a little something to fill the void before my new shoes arrive. I thought it would be nice to talk about a few little things, not important and in short just ramblings from me.

Time at the moment is something I do not really have, with fitness, horses, sewing, burlesque, modelling, Djing and a baby on the way its all a bit hectic.

Anyway....

First off I'm going to talk about comics. Everyone has a favourite. My other half's current preferred comic is Green Lantern. Which I have to admit is a nice choice, I believe it was Green arrow until he read blackest night  (the whole thing with green arrow cheating on Dahlia put him off I think). On that note the Film was okay, not amazing but not bad.

My personal Favourite is.... Lady Death. I adore that comic, strong and rather saucy main character with a dark feel to it. Has been my top one for many years.  The animated film really was enjoyable, I thought it was anyway even if no one else liked it.


all I'm going to say is... meow

  

I suppose not that western style comics are done with, onto Manga!

Hmm I don't really have a favourite in this sense but a few that I enjoy.  Elfen Lied, Record of Lodoss War, Ghost in the Shell and Alichino being the top dogs at the moment.

 

As you may notice, I adore fantasy, dark fantasy and elves :) 

Anime is generally the same as the above although I do have other titles to add... Vampire hunter D is my number one of all time. I do also enjoy Claymore, Trinity Blood, Fushigi yugi and soul eater. 

Oh Vampire hunter D is a fantastic graphic novel.

I'm currently seeking out new comics and manga so if anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear them.

Shiny new shoes

Not really much in the way of an update but I have some new pretties on the way.  (Cai has also been going on a baby spending spree ^^ but I'm not going to talk about that)
I brought these a while ago, they are awesome ^^ 8" heels, shown in the below video.

I also have another new pair coming at the end of the month. Very much excited about them.

Joy

Having had a great few weeks. Firstly Resistanz was awesome. Noisuf-x played an amazing set as did several other bands. Neuroticfish, Alter De Ruine, C-Lekktor, Phosgore and Ivardensphere were all great to, sad to see that Seabound couldn't make it that would of topped the weekend really.

Flux Vortex Last night was fun also, the night is really taking off and our set went down... Rather well actually.

Also I may be running another regular night at Eddies... More to come on that soon.

In other news, rather big news. The last couple of weeks I have been very unwell. We are pleased to say that this is good. Odd as it might sound - Cai and I are expecting our first baby :)
I think he is more excited about it than me. We took a fair time discussing options etc and we decided we are in a perfect position to keep it. Money certainly is no issue whatsoever, we are emotionally, physically and mentally ready. Also we are getting hand fasted for the traditional year and a day on Litha this year. <3 Happy times.

I'm still performing burlesque at the moment and will continue to do so after the birth. I love it too much to give up.

I suppose more news to come Soon ^^

Loss

It has taken me a while to get to a point where I can actually write about this subject. What started off as a good year has already turned sour. In short I am feeling somewhat morose.

Anyone who knows me will also know that I have grown up around horses, actually owning some for a good part of my life. The most we had at one point was five, in recent years this was taken down to two (this was mentioned in a previous post).
Poppy, my welsh cob whom I have owned for almost 11 years now and Thyme my white-born appaloosa whom as of this march I will of owned for 10 years.

Saturday 26th January, we had to get the vet out to Thyme as she has somehow received a nasty injury. Turns out it was only an infected blood blister and it was easily cured. Antibiotics and Bute. Thyme has a history of strange antics, she has a rather expensive hock injury from fighting with Poppy not long after we brought her. Went for X-rays and everything, thankfully nothing was wrong.
Then she foot her foot stuck in her haynet one night and somehow, to this day I have no idea how, kicked out the window and then went over the stable door. We thankfully got there in time to cut her lose. She was hanging upside down, hoof in haynet outside the stable door. Once again, got the vet down and no injuries what so ever.

For those that don't know a whiteborn horse is, its a horse that has a genetic mutation, which produces a pure white coat and unpigmented (pink skin) so the horse is not grey. Leopard spotted appaloosa like thyme are supposed to have leopard like spots all over the skin, however she did not.
so she should of been like this

but actually she was like this -


I don't think she had the lethal white foal gene.... but she may of had it. They usually die at an early age so it isn't likely.

Anyway... enough idol chatter I shall continue with the story.
Thyme's injury healed up nicely, Cai was even up helping me with her on Tuesday night. when we let her out she was running around the fields with Poppy happily.

Wednesday morning I received a phonecall... My little appaloosa has developed colic over night. Now, there had been no change in her diet or anything like that so it really was very unexpected an random. The vet gave me three options, Surgery (which would cost between £4000 and £10000 which we just didn't have), check on her and keep her health monitored or euthanasia. She had improved very quickly so we all agreed that to keep an eye on her was the best option.

I stayed with her until super late at night, she was perfectly fine by this point, happy, bright, alert and whinnying like normal. It really looked like she was better. Yet we kept her in the stable with some water and no food just to be safe.
On Wednesday morning, I got another phone call (I was already up and off to see her... it was 8:15am). Thyme had died. To say the least I was distraught, the vet had given her the all clear the night before....  she was my baby. I loved her to pieces. Poppy knows I think, she looks very depressed. No signs of any thrashing so she most likely wasn't in pain thankfully and she was still warm when they called so sadly it hadn't been long before.

It may seam sad or pathetic but I really miss her; its strange not hearing her high pitched whinny when I come on the yard to see them.
She inspired my unicorn act. This was because she was pure white and at times reminded me of a de-horned unicorn, some nights she would shine and you could see her across the fields. So to honour her memory I am saving up for a custom oil painting this is also coupled with me changing out one of my acts from a show this Saturday. I was supposed to perform my Succubus act but instead I decided to perform Unicornis, in memory of my beautiful little unicorn.  It was hard not to cry on stage.

At least she has Owen and Quest with her now. (They were two of my other horses. We found out on Friday that Quest had died last year... we had given him to a friend a few years before)

R.I.P Thyme - Poppy, Cai and I love you and miss you very much. there will never be another like you. You will always be in our hearts. <3