Life goes on

This post is not one of light heartedness. Two weeks ago my Grandma Passed away rather suddenly and for reasons not connected with what she went to hospital for. Her funeral was Wednesday. It was very strange to see the rest of the family again, some of us don't get along very well. RIP grandma Eileen, at least you can see grandad Pasqualino (Pasquale), uncle Ben and uncle Martin again. 

Thankfully she got to see our baby girl before you passed away. This is the only time I will post a photo of her on this blog but I think she would appreciate the photo of herself and baby Ophelia. (At about 10 weeks old) 

On top of this we had another miscarriage (wasn't aware we were expecting in fairness) - second since Ophelia was born :( 

Can't be helped so no point dwelling on it. 

Let's hope the rest of the month is better as Phee is a year old in April. That time went fast. 

Anyway shows to do, things to make. No time to dwell on misfortunes for the future never waits. Keep safe all

Growing bump

I realise that this post may be a bit late... Considering Ophelia is now 9 months old (almost) but a few of my burlesque friends are expecting so I thought it would be nice to do a little write up. So here goes.

I have some tips that helped me when I was expecting. They may not work for everyone though. 

First things first, when you find out you are expecting a little miracle, please go to your doctors to sort out your care/antenatal/pre-natal appointments.

Morning sickness

Most women experience this in varying levels, usually in early pregnancy and I'm not going to lie. It's ghastly. Thankfully most of the time it vanishes around 12-27weeks depending. 

I had it pretty bad, I had to travel to the horses a lot on buses and trains (I also commuted to london) which was a trigger. I found sucking crystallised ginger really helped to prevent any vomitting when I was bad. 

If you find you are really ill then head to the doctors as they may be able to help.

Another trigger for me was strong smells. I found that the only way to help this was to try and ignore the offending scent and carry something strong and pleasant smelling with me.

Nutrients

As soon as you find out that you are pregnant then it is advised to take folic acid supplements, specialised for pregnancy is best fortified with omega, calcium and iron, avoid vitamin A as this is harmful to your little one. If you look online there is a list of things to avoid eating, please pay attention to it as they are listed to prevent harm to the growing fetus. Also avoid alcohol especially. Do not eat loads more than you usually do, you don't need to eat more until your last trimester unless your midwife/doctors says otherwise.

Tired?

Take a rest when you need, especially during the first and third trimester. Due to university and my horses I couldn't get the rest I needed and with a 36 hour labour I was shattered. 

Bleeding

Red bleeding, particularly heavy or more than spotting is not usually normal. Please go to the doctors as soon as possible, A&E if you have to. Sadly miscarriages are common in the first trimester. (We sadly lost two babies this way - miscarriage I mean) 

Perineal massage 

This may seam very strange but I will swear by this. I had a natural birth and no tears what so ever so I guess it helped me. Best to get your partner to do it but it can be done alone. Look it up. 

Pain

Back, muscle, hip, leg and ligament pain is very common during pregnancy. Back supports can help and the doctor might have some suggestions. If you get severe unrelenting pain in your shoulder blade (particularly in only one) then it might be worth a trip to A&E/doctors to check its okay. I had this and thankfully it was all okay. However this resulted in physiotherapy once a week to try and relieve it.

Relaxation

Very very important; stress is your enemy.  It's harmful for you and your baby. When you hit the third trimester back your baby and labour bags ready, one less stress. I was travelling round and performing all the way up till Ophelia was born so it was important to have this organised. 

Gentle massage thoughout the pregnancy and labour helped so much. 

Also take a nice soak in the bath, not hot! You will hurt your baby, but warm is fine.

I will post a list of the pampering items I used during my pregancy.

Appointments 

Attend all your appointments and if you can attend any birthing courses offered to you. They give important information at the birthing classes, such as labour choices and others, including Caring for your newborn and reducing SIDS risk (sudden infant death syndrome). The antenatal appointments check your health and that of the baby. If you think there is a problem (we were told there was a fetual arrhythmia so I went to the women's hospital to check and it was completely fine - false alarm).

Personally I hate hospitals so I chose to have my baby in the birthing suite not the obstetric unit. My next will be a home birth. Choose what is best for you and your risk assessment. (I was very low risk)

 

Going out

We still went clubbing and indeed I was performing. Of course I was very careful yet I actually enjoyed it. Not everyone feels up for this though which is fair enough. The getting dressed up made me feel quite good in honesty. This leads to another point. You don't have to pay loads of money on clothes for going out. I actually found some lovely normal clothes that were my normal size but stretchy... And quite flattering for bumps. Look around not just at maternity clothes. In fact I only owned a few maternity things,which I made. I would love to make some more quirky and comfortable maternity clothes. Message me if interested. 

Intercourse 

Some women and men really go off sex during pregnancy, which is reasonable. Some however (myself and my partner included) found that they aren't phased at all and don't mind having intimate moments whilst expecting. This actually can be relaxing for you and some ladies find that they can reach orgasm easier due to the increased blood flow to the vagina and not having to worry/stress about getting pregnant. It does not harm your baby in any way. 

Helping hands

Remember, your doctor is there to help you, if you are ever worried then call them or your midwife. It's better to be safe than sorry. Also support from your partner (if you have one), friends and family can be invaluable. If you happen to have any who are also pregnant or have young babies/children then even better. Don't be afraid to talk about things to those close to you. I'm always happy to chat for example if any of my friends so wish.

Knowing it's time

This is a bit of a vague. I am writing this because for first time mums it's confusing to know what's a real contraction and what's a Braxton hicks. Trust me you will know! Sadly I was unfortunate enough to have random occurances of false starts for a month. This is basically where started having really strong contractions (not Braxton hicks) but nothing actually moved along such as cervix dilation. It's stressful to say the least. My best advice if this happens to you is wait and relax. Don't stress. If in doubt contact your midwife.

I hope some of this helps. I may of forgotten something. If I think of something I will add another post for it.

Take care now.

 

A moment to breathe

I really don't post on here as often or as fully as I should. It all boils down to being so busy with the little madam (who is bopping around her bouncer to Christian Death at the moment). 

Rest assured I have a lot of posts coming up, I just spend so much time doing other things. Between looking after Ophelia, the horses, work (burlesque and sewing... I am making a study of maternity corsets/post partum corsets at the moment. It helped me so much during my pregnancy), university, visiting my mum a lot (which in fairness clashes with seeing my horses in Coventry as that's where she lives). Really I don't have time for much else. I wouldn't have it any other way. Hopefully I will have time to catch up with friends but it's not likely.

I will catch up with posts! Please bare with me.

A moment in time

Ever had one of those moments when you see someone you used to be good friends with and you can't remember why you don't talk anymore? Or indeed you don't really know the reason why you fell out in the first place? Yea, one of them. 

It was strange. I guess it doesn't really matter but it made me realise I can't be bothered with petty attitudes and grudges. If people want to be that way inclined then so be it. I have more important things in my life than to harbour such negativity. 

If and when they want to talk again I will be willing but until then so be it.

Happiness

It is a fact that happiness can be found in many forms and it varies from person to person. 

The last two years have been truly happy for me (except for the loss of one of my horses... That was obviously not happy)

I am sailing through my education (medicine is a loooong course) and have the most amazing partner I could ever hope for. It may seem really cliché but there you go.

This year has seen many ups and downs. With death and illness of family members and loved ones on both mine and my fiancé's side. Yes fiancé ^*^ he proposed later this year at a family gathering. 

It's been almost a year since the death of my Appaloosa, wow time flies and I still miss her. Poppy is still going strong and recovered from a mild bout of Laminitus so she is sound again.

I'm loving my work more and more, plus meeting new people. The recent show I ran was a great success. I look forward to putting on the next one.

What else can I say... I've had to take a small hiatus from tightlacing and wearing corsets. This is due to the fact that we are expected a baby, it was planned before anyone asks. However after the birth I will be wearing them again so yay. (As I'm writing this I'm being kicked like mad haha.) Also electric Mausoleum has moved to the first Friday of the month and our Yuletide vampire ball has a good turn out.

I hope everyone else had a good year and will have another great one next year.

Comics

Just a little something to fill the void before my new shoes arrive. I thought it would be nice to talk about a few little things, not important and in short just ramblings from me.

Time at the moment is something I do not really have, with fitness, horses, sewing, burlesque, modelling, Djing and a baby on the way its all a bit hectic.

Anyway....

First off I'm going to talk about comics. Everyone has a favourite. My other half's current preferred comic is Green Lantern. Which I have to admit is a nice choice, I believe it was Green arrow until he read blackest night  (the whole thing with green arrow cheating on Dahlia put him off I think). On that note the Film was okay, not amazing but not bad.

My personal Favourite is.... Lady Death. I adore that comic, strong and rather saucy main character with a dark feel to it. Has been my top one for many years.  The animated film really was enjoyable, I thought it was anyway even if no one else liked it.


all I'm going to say is... meow

  

I suppose not that western style comics are done with, onto Manga!

Hmm I don't really have a favourite in this sense but a few that I enjoy.  Elfen Lied, Record of Lodoss War, Ghost in the Shell and Alichino being the top dogs at the moment.

 

As you may notice, I adore fantasy, dark fantasy and elves :) 

Anime is generally the same as the above although I do have other titles to add... Vampire hunter D is my number one of all time. I do also enjoy Claymore, Trinity Blood, Fushigi yugi and soul eater. 

Oh Vampire hunter D is a fantastic graphic novel.

I'm currently seeking out new comics and manga so if anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear them.

Joy

Having had a great few weeks. Firstly Resistanz was awesome. Noisuf-x played an amazing set as did several other bands. Neuroticfish, Alter De Ruine, C-Lekktor, Phosgore and Ivardensphere were all great to, sad to see that Seabound couldn't make it that would of topped the weekend really.

Flux Vortex Last night was fun also, the night is really taking off and our set went down... Rather well actually.

Also I may be running another regular night at Eddies... More to come on that soon.

In other news, rather big news. The last couple of weeks I have been very unwell. We are pleased to say that this is good. Odd as it might sound - Cai and I are expecting our first baby :)
I think he is more excited about it than me. We took a fair time discussing options etc and we decided we are in a perfect position to keep it. Money certainly is no issue whatsoever, we are emotionally, physically and mentally ready. Also we are getting hand fasted for the traditional year and a day on Litha this year. <3 Happy times.

I'm still performing burlesque at the moment and will continue to do so after the birth. I love it too much to give up.

I suppose more news to come Soon ^^

New member of the family

When it comes to humans I am a bit of a misanthrope, however I do adore other animals. Those who know me also know that I am living with my other half and I'm really happy, have been for over a year now. Between the two of us we have such a menagerie and now I can happily say we have a new member of our family.

It's a personal preference of mine to rescue animals, my black and white cat Idrial was a stray. Since our oldest cat passed away last Christmas and Cai and I have our own house now we decided to take on another.

This is when I heard about Destiny. She was at the RSPCA and due to be put down the day a friend of mine fostered her. Feeling so sorry for her, I picked her up and brought her home. At first she was a shy little thing and extremely temperamental, this turned out to be only because she was frightened. All truth be told she is a soft friendly thing and has settled very well. Getting along with Idrial and the rest of the critters.

She is a black cat with white marking like Idrial and our late cat Dusty.... Infact she is a spitting image of Dusty.

A very welcome member of the family.

Hitting a down-slope

Those times you just want to scream and cry... but I can't cry.
Everything has hit me at once and I'm just feeling more and more low. I've been so very stressed recently, with University screwing timetables and re-enrolment around. Moving house, ill horses. It's all building up on me and its really starting to show.

I am not and have never been a pretty girl, but I wasn't the worse thing out there and I was happy enough in my skin. Recently I took on some work which I really regret doing, it only served to stress me out more and more... and it made me realise that I look awful right now. My skin is worse than it has been for a very long time, my hair is dull. I take care of myself, I have a strict cleansing/care routine but its no longer having the effect it used to.

I look old, its really upsetting me.

Stress-rashes keep breaking out, ultimately I feel very very low. Even my burlesque work isn't picking me up and I'm worried it will start to effect that to. Depression is a horrible thing and generally I do not get depressed easily.

I'm sick of it, no longer feeling like myself is horrible and I want to pick myself up. To top it all off Student Finance hasn't paid into my bank yet. Just more stress to add to the pile.

I know Cai is being very supportive, I love him to pieces but I can't help but worry that he will run off with a better looking bint... everyone else did.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what will help. Suggestions anyone?

New house!

Excited, bewildered.... I can't really think of any other words to describe how I fell right now and that's putting it lightly. I don't think those words quite catch the emotion correctly but words are escaping me right now.

This year has been the best year of my life so far, both physically and emotionally. I am genuinely happy. Hopefully I have many good years ahead of us.

Cai recently brought a house and asked me to move in with him, lucky me  ^0^

As I write we are in the middle of decorating and it looks lovely so far, can't wait until everything is sorted. There is a massive workshop at the back of the house which will get a lot of use. Both myself and the better half are rather crafty people. Lots of pretties on the way.

On that note The better half is actually going to join me in a bit of corsetry and make me a special corset ^^ can't wait to see how it comes out.

Let the crafting commence!!!

Certain substances

A few things have happened recently, mostly in regards to friends but I thought I would share my own thoughts on various rather sore subjects.

First off... alcohol. I very rarely drink anymore. I am a bit of a fitness nut and alcohol has a negative effect on the body and brain. But you already knew that. My little nephew has just turned 18 and is constantly getting wrecked. He has a good time, its his choice. yet he moans when it makes him ill or he has a bad hangover... don't drink then problem solved. I used to drink a copious amount of alcohol, and mixing etc. Pretty much every day when I was younger. My first partner was older than me and used to take me to pubs underage. Yet I never got drunk and trust me we drank a lot.

my Father has a history of being a violent drunk so I'm not fond of being around drunk people anyway. It wasn't worth risking my health anymore so I stopped drinking so much, I keep it to occasions now. I just don't see the point in it anymore.

Next on my list is drugs. I despise them. Have never ever touched any (nope not even weed) and I never will. They are dangerous and useless. Failing to make you cool and more like an obsessive lunatic or complete twat half of the time. I will bear no company with anyone who partakes in any drug whatsoever. Before some smart arse says that medicines are drugs and so is caffeine... yep I know that, I am studying medicine. I am talking about illegal substances, hallucinogens.. ie LCD, ketamine, amphetamines, coke etc. Sadly they have been strongly connected with the goth and cybergoth scene which I do not agree with at all. There is just no need for it.

In the past I have left three partners for taking these substances, just can't stand them. But once again it's their choice I am merely expressing my distaste for such.

If you have to take drugs or drink a copious amount of alcohol to have a good time then clearly there is something laking in your life (in my opinion). I can't see the need or reason to take them (save for medicinal reasons). Its not 'big' or clever.

I am happy to hear other people's thoughts on this matter, as a medical student it is something that could be worth hearing.

Over to you!

A word on fitness

With the end of the Olympics and the start of the paralympics dawning I believe this is an appropriate time to talk about fitness.
I always have been rather sporty and I'm a bit of a fitness nut. At school I used to do PE three times a week out of choice, I got an a* at GCSE, on top of this I used to play for the school hockey team twice a week, then I used to go athletics training three times a week, not including competition days. I then used to go Badminton on a Friday morning and Use the Gym on a Thursday and Friday lunch time followed by cross country training. I have a lot of certificates and medals for various sports. Then after school I used to go and look after the horses which meant another 4/5 hours riding depending on how many of the 5 horses I owned at the time I would ride this would be everyday without fail including shows and competitions on Sundays. This was followed on a Tuesday evening and Saturday morning by Aikido and Archery training.

So Yea I was a bit of a sport nut, still am though it is mostly jogging, horse-riding and various forms of dance. I am a bit obsessed with keeping healthy and fit. I naturally have a washboard flat stomach yet a curvy hourglass shape so I try to keep this. Burlesque keeps me fit as I'm practising most days. On top of this the dance I do is Bellydance, salsa and ballroom. This isn't all, I am also a Zumba fanatic. Its so much fun and my instructor is really good.

Too many people I know say they want to lose weight and yet all they do is diet, you need to exercise if you want to lose weight as well as maintain a balanced, nutritional diet.

Actually I struggle half the time because my metabolism is very quick and I can accidentally lose weight if I'm not careful which is not what I want to do. Therefore I eat a lot to make up for it.

Balance is the key.

General geekery... Games and other hobbies

Right now I have some time to relax before the hectic moving and reflect on some of my other hobbies. Things have died down on the dread making front, I have another stall in September but for the moment I'm concentrating on my burlesque and modelling work. Anyway enough with prefaces and the like, I have a fair few hobbies that I don't really talk about much save to those who know me. In other words my partner, family and close friends. Having a love for fantasy, both light and especially dark - including mythology of course - means that I will naturally have a love for things surrounding these genres. My religion I'm neo-pagan which is obvious and I have been for many many years, pretty much was raised it. Anyway back on track... I used to be and still am an avid gamer, I adore fantasy based RPGs, platform, retro, sci-fi, action and horror games. Though this said I can often be found playing with my little sister on the wii... It's fun I will admit. Though my favourite games of all reflect my favourite series of books (aside from the works of JRR Tolkien yep that's right, I adore LOTR grew up on it so sue me) which is Neverwinter nights, ice wind dale trilogy, baulder's gate and the like. I love them so much fun to play though they are old now. Looking forward to the new RA Salvatore collaboration. My older brother used to love D&D as well as tabletop war games as he is 14 years older than me this meant that I used to watch him play and join in as best I could from a young age. These are two things that I still do today. Being an avid games workshop fanatic as well as D&D gamer. It says something when my mum noted and complained that whilst I was with my ex I didn't game anymore. That was one huge mistake I won't make again. He wasn't worth it. I have several armies, ranging from vampire counts, Lotr, wood elves, dark elves, chaos, tomb kings etc. wood elves are my favourite, I have a very strong affinity to elven lore. I was actually called an elf by friends when I was younger for many many years. I'm not complaining.

As to other games in particular I'm a sucker for card games, magic the gathering being an old favourite. Cai and I went to the latest prelaunch and had a great time as most of the hobbies i have so to does he. Win on this front. I used to also Larp which is something I don't do anymore but I do still build and craft costumes for, especially my friends and other people. These are just the gaming style hobbies, I do have loads more an relative posts will be put up in due course.

Nihon!

Busy looking  through old photos and boxes when I found some lovely memorabilia from my trip to japan in 2005 .... it seams like such a long time ago now.

I adored it, I am lucky enough to of been able to study Japanese at GCSE and so know a lot about the culture and language and its just amazing. I really do think highly of the japanese, in particular the scientists in nanotechnology and other areas.

The culture is very different from here and one must say that I do prefer it there. Whilst there I got to see some amazing things, both new and old, traditional parts of Japan including an Okiya where we saw traditional and very real Geisha's performing... they are so beautiful.

I do so miss all my friends over there, And thankfully I can say that I will be returning there very very soon ^^

Nihon ni ikimashou!

Here are some photos from when we were there... sadly I have lost weight since then (illness and stress mostly but I am putting weight back on, also I was 16 haha)

me in the nightmare t-shirt with my best friend at the time Chris

This is Minami and Yuko ^^

This is the Back of my Kimono, Yep I brought myself a real Traditional Japanese Kimono from a geisha market, with the obi of course. I also brought geta, a parasol and dancing fans

We went to bepu bay, and thus the hot springs named 'Bloody hell'

They have black swans ^^ taihen Kirei desu ne!

We saw so much more than I have named and met loads of people. I miss my EGL friends the most :( see you very soon lovelies!

Busy time

There is a lot going on at the moment and not much in the way of posts, for this I apologise. Allow me to remedy some of the inquisitiveness.

I am making products for my upcoming stall, this takes a lot of my time and effort couple that we my pets and well there you go really.... leaves very little room for much else. This is the price you pay for owning horses.

However on top of these things I also have my Burlesque, I'm performing regularly and creating new acts at the moment which - albeit very exciting - takes a lot of energy and thought. Furthermore my better half has just brought a house so I'm helping where I can to get things ready and stop him stressing so much. Quite a feat to be honest.

Congratulations to him for passing his driving test though... now we just have to get his mini roadworthy.

Much rushing around as you can see so please excuse the lack of posts it will be remedied as soon as everything reaches a proficient calm again.

Beginnings anew

Several things over the last few years have made me take time to sit and reflect on things. What can I say? I had a bad year or so a couple of years back and It really made me think of people or humanity in a very different and negative light. Pretty much all of my past relationships have been Ill-fated sadly usually involving them cheating on me. As I person I'm very much a romantic, usually preferring a darker feel or ambience... Thus it isn't surprising that each time this has happened my self esteem -which isn't particularly high to begin with - plummets. This happened a lot with one of my longer relationships and in honesty it left me feelin very morose and in a sense worthless as I always blame myself for those kind of actions. This relationship in question is long over, yet still I find people telling me stories of other untoward ad sorded actions he performed whilst we were together. In a word.. "ouch" it still stings. The reason for writing this blog is not to slander but rather to vent and perhaps provide light at the end of the tunnel for those who are unfortunate enough to have experienced similar. I'm a bit of a fighter, I try not to let my emotions show... I can't even physically cry. However the whole experience has left me as a real misanthropist. This I have always been in a sense and in any case I do not agree with and thoroughly dislike 'one night stands', 'fuck buddies' and the like. I tend to avoid people who do such as I see intercourse as something that should only be done in a relationship (a loving one at that) but that's my opinion and everyone is entitled to their own. Now Then, my tale gets a bit lighter and hopefully it will not end in such a forlorn was as the others have. My current partner is not like the others. I'm genuinely happy, more so than I have been for a long time. For once I can be loving and romantic without it being shunned. I wrote this post because I found a elated ending at the end of a dark time, a lot of my friends have had harsh tidings recently and hopefully this will pick them up because if I can be happy so can you! Keep your chin up, stay strong and everything will get better.

Brief Background

My mum just found a really old photo of myself and my younger sister, I believe I was about 3 in it and its quite cute. My mum has always been into unusual things and herself, my older sister (she is 44 now) and her ex partner were 80's new romantics and into music which is now known as Batcave,darkwave and gothic rock. Due to a history of violence on my dad's behalf my mum spend a lot of time in hospital and so my older sister pretty much brought me up, apparently I used to fall asleep listening to Siouxsie and the Banshees and Alien Sex Fiend, etc, purely as this was the only kind of music my sister and her other half had.. they still actually have the original vinyls they used to play to me which is pretty cool. I haven't changed much... I still wear similar clothing nowadays albeit different styles thereof. Here's the photo ^^

I will see if I can find my prom photo at some point. During school years I was pretty much a black sheep (no pun intended) whilst everyone else was listening to pop I stuck with Bauhaus and The mission UK, wearing long black skirts and hiking boots. At secondary school and sixth form it was much the same, only I got a chance to Study Japanese as a GCSE, I would of continued onto A-level but I needed sciences and maths to pursue my career path (pathology) and so I couldn't, really was a shame as I enjoyed it, received and A* in my exams, became the 3rd Best speaker of Japanese KS3 in the national Japanese nihongo cup which took place in the Japanese embassy in London... true fact... I believe the page is actually still up. Lucky us we also got to go to Japan, that was amazing, I really look forward to going back soon. When I wasn't studying, playing violin or crafting I was horse-riding... this is a sport I had been doing from a very young age, I can't even remember my first lesson. I'm now studying a rather lengthy degree course in university, being Forensic Biochemical Medicine, had to get straight A's in Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths to get in so I'm quite chuffed.

I got very quickly bored with the usual mainstream alternative items one can buy so I started making my own clothing and accessories, corsets being among one of the first. Being rather sporty I had a fairly slim waistline (have put a bit of weight on since) I just couldn't find any that fitted me properly so my sister made a joke of making one... which I did so it wasn't much of a jest in the end.

When I was 16 myself and a friend started making dreads, due to us both being rather intrigued by the cyber-goth scene. My older brother used to love sci-fi so we used to sit and watch films such as blade-runner, star wars and barbarella when I was quite young. I love futurism as much as I do history. Particularly in scientific developments and nanotechnology, bio kinetics. I am a scientist after all. So I had my first set of dreads in 2006, They weren't amazing and I have since added to them. In light of this for Christmas that year she brought me a pair of waist high cyber platform boots, I still have these and I wore them to the local fetish night, Twisted in 2007. In the following years I attended various nights, goth and cyber alike, making my second air of dreads in 2008. There are photos of me in my cyber gear on both the Twisted myspace page (if its still there) 2007-2010 I now DJ there to which is awesome and is starting up again this year. There are photos on the Wendyhouse official website photo archive on July 18th 2009 (red dreads) as well as modelling photos taken in 2008/2009 when I brought a new pair of Demonia stacks ^^ all dated and official. One of those said shoots was in my green dreads and at WH itself, that was a strange night, I have been modelling since 2005 so quite a long time, I still have a dated disc with my very first photoshoot images on.

So I'm still into my goth,batcave, lolita, cyber and now steampunk as well. My mum has always had a liking for victoriana and its really elaborate. I have only really been into this for three years (an ex really liked it and wouldn't shut up about it, kinda got me hooked) I like the fantasy literacy element and its an excuse to wear flouncy victorian-esque dresses and crinolines... not that one needed an excuse but it does look pretty cool. I'm not overly fond of the mainstream... lets just put cogs on it and call it steampunk stuff one sees nowadays, steampunk doesn't have to be brass, brown and clockwork everything, my favourite dress I have made is a green, black and silver absinthe fae inspired gown. I do make my own clothing and accessories which is a bonus I suppose when it comes to steampunk. Burlesque Though I have liked for years I was never able to get properly into due to an overbearing ex, I have now been back onto the burlesque scene properly for over a year now and am loving every moment of it.