New member of the family

When it comes to humans I am a bit of a misanthrope, however I do adore other animals. Those who know me also know that I am living with my other half and I'm really happy, have been for over a year now. Between the two of us we have such a menagerie and now I can happily say we have a new member of our family.

It's a personal preference of mine to rescue animals, my black and white cat Idrial was a stray. Since our oldest cat passed away last Christmas and Cai and I have our own house now we decided to take on another.

This is when I heard about Destiny. She was at the RSPCA and due to be put down the day a friend of mine fostered her. Feeling so sorry for her, I picked her up and brought her home. At first she was a shy little thing and extremely temperamental, this turned out to be only because she was frightened. All truth be told she is a soft friendly thing and has settled very well. Getting along with Idrial and the rest of the critters.

She is a black cat with white marking like Idrial and our late cat Dusty.... Infact she is a spitting image of Dusty.

A very welcome member of the family.

Holiday Hold-up

There isn't really much I can say about this, I is all a bit tragic. Christmas day (I don't celebrate it but my family does) turned into a bit of a disaster zone really.

After picking up my mother and sister from Coventry for Christmas dinner which myself and Cai were cooking, We decided to do the courteous thing and drop them home afterwards. In all that was a fair gesture, having almost arrived in Coventry at about 7:15, good timing until everyone came to a standstill. Sadly we were seven cars down from a serious accident. Waiting patiently we witnessed two fire engines, four police cars, three large emergency ambulances, two smaller paramedic ambulances and two highway maintenance vehicles speed past on the hard shoulder. this scene wasn't cleared away until 9:20.

however apparently it was not a lucky day for us. As we drove past the scene of the crash a bit of debris chipped up and clipped the rear window. Upon arriving at the nearby services to fill up on fuel the window sadly smashed. This meant another long wait. My mother and sister went home via my sibling's boyfriend who picked them up, leaving myself and my partner waiting for the AA. They did not arrive until 12am due to another accident.  At long last we got home safe and sound.

Save for that we had a good Christmas actually. I am finally recovering from illness and looking a lot better.

Thankfully there were apparently no fatalities in that crash though there were others earlier that day and Christmas-eve with more morose endings, one involving horses as I found out :( . Tragic really. I really hope everyone drives safely for the rest of the holiday period.

Tidings new and old

Not much going on here, Uni is dull at the moment but one just carries on.
It's like a hazy sleep has taken hold of the world and everything is dumbed and veiled. Anyway... I'm not sure why I am writing this, I guess its to vent and for something to do.

Loads of things has happened on the sewing and creative front, new clothing, corsets, hair and other little bits and pieces. the house still isn't fully decorated but we are waiting for unavoidable things to happen before we continue that.

Burlesque has been going well, I am now running another night which hopefully will become a regular occurrence. things are good. And I got told off by a photographer for considering giving up modelling... something which I have been doing for 7 years now (Blimey that's a long time) so I guess I will be getting back into that to now.

On a completely different note, my little sister is engaged, I find this rather odd and disturbing. Here is why;

She broke up with her boyfriend of 7 months Saturday just gone - the reasons were many. Then, refusing to speak to him began ignoring his calls. We find out a few days ago that he had phoned her up early in the morning and proposed... oh how romantic :/ .... *insert sarcasm here*.

Don't get me wrong, as long as she's happy. What I do find odd is that they had broken up and then she said yes to his proposal, also he could of waited until he next saw her rather than over the phone. Anyway it's done now... maybe I'm just too much of a romantic at heart. .... At least she doesn't want me to make her wedding dress.

Back to the brighter side of things, my partner and I celebrated our anniversary at WGW (he had never been before) The bands were amazing as always and I got to see one of the bands I had listened to from a very early age. So chuffed with that. It was good to be back at WGW again. Looking forward...

 and above is a photo from WGW

WGW

Wow, okay its been a few years since I have been and now I am Taking my other half for out anniversary ^^... the official Date is October 31st but he has never been to WGW so I thought it would be nice to spend the time there for a week. I have tickets booked to see the bands and oh yes we intend to hit the club nights there as well as the pubs, a few older attractions etc. I think we are looking forward to a few days of wondering around the nice scenery to be honest with you.

Packing finishes today and I have an exam tomorrow before we go... eeekk a long day of travelling and on Samhain to :( but I'm sure the rest of the week will make up for it. I can't wait to see all my old friends, some of which I have not seen for a good few years. The good part is its all the music I grew up with and aren't played all that often anymore so double win here.

I will post up some pictures when we get home but I'm looking forward to a nice time away with my sexy man.

Hitting a down-slope

Those times you just want to scream and cry... but I can't cry.
Everything has hit me at once and I'm just feeling more and more low. I've been so very stressed recently, with University screwing timetables and re-enrolment around. Moving house, ill horses. It's all building up on me and its really starting to show.

I am not and have never been a pretty girl, but I wasn't the worse thing out there and I was happy enough in my skin. Recently I took on some work which I really regret doing, it only served to stress me out more and more... and it made me realise that I look awful right now. My skin is worse than it has been for a very long time, my hair is dull. I take care of myself, I have a strict cleansing/care routine but its no longer having the effect it used to.

I look old, its really upsetting me.

Stress-rashes keep breaking out, ultimately I feel very very low. Even my burlesque work isn't picking me up and I'm worried it will start to effect that to. Depression is a horrible thing and generally I do not get depressed easily.

I'm sick of it, no longer feeling like myself is horrible and I want to pick myself up. To top it all off Student Finance hasn't paid into my bank yet. Just more stress to add to the pile.

I know Cai is being very supportive, I love him to pieces but I can't help but worry that he will run off with a better looking bint... everyone else did.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what will help. Suggestions anyone?

New house!

Excited, bewildered.... I can't really think of any other words to describe how I fell right now and that's putting it lightly. I don't think those words quite catch the emotion correctly but words are escaping me right now.

This year has been the best year of my life so far, both physically and emotionally. I am genuinely happy. Hopefully I have many good years ahead of us.

Cai recently brought a house and asked me to move in with him, lucky me  ^0^

As I write we are in the middle of decorating and it looks lovely so far, can't wait until everything is sorted. There is a massive workshop at the back of the house which will get a lot of use. Both myself and the better half are rather crafty people. Lots of pretties on the way.

On that note The better half is actually going to join me in a bit of corsetry and make me a special corset ^^ can't wait to see how it comes out.

Let the crafting commence!!!

Certain substances

A few things have happened recently, mostly in regards to friends but I thought I would share my own thoughts on various rather sore subjects.

First off... alcohol. I very rarely drink anymore. I am a bit of a fitness nut and alcohol has a negative effect on the body and brain. But you already knew that. My little nephew has just turned 18 and is constantly getting wrecked. He has a good time, its his choice. yet he moans when it makes him ill or he has a bad hangover... don't drink then problem solved. I used to drink a copious amount of alcohol, and mixing etc. Pretty much every day when I was younger. My first partner was older than me and used to take me to pubs underage. Yet I never got drunk and trust me we drank a lot.

my Father has a history of being a violent drunk so I'm not fond of being around drunk people anyway. It wasn't worth risking my health anymore so I stopped drinking so much, I keep it to occasions now. I just don't see the point in it anymore.

Next on my list is drugs. I despise them. Have never ever touched any (nope not even weed) and I never will. They are dangerous and useless. Failing to make you cool and more like an obsessive lunatic or complete twat half of the time. I will bear no company with anyone who partakes in any drug whatsoever. Before some smart arse says that medicines are drugs and so is caffeine... yep I know that, I am studying medicine. I am talking about illegal substances, hallucinogens.. ie LCD, ketamine, amphetamines, coke etc. Sadly they have been strongly connected with the goth and cybergoth scene which I do not agree with at all. There is just no need for it.

In the past I have left three partners for taking these substances, just can't stand them. But once again it's their choice I am merely expressing my distaste for such.

If you have to take drugs or drink a copious amount of alcohol to have a good time then clearly there is something laking in your life (in my opinion). I can't see the need or reason to take them (save for medicinal reasons). Its not 'big' or clever.

I am happy to hear other people's thoughts on this matter, as a medical student it is something that could be worth hearing.

Over to you!